This is all for today

Inception = Amazing

Wow. I am having a good weekend, I think. :) First let's talk about yesterday. History test was kind of overwhelming. I almost used up an entire blue book to answer the questions. If you don't know, that is a lot. Then in Psyc I felt very bland... I felt like the test was designed honestly (on his part) but in a way that pretty much means we can't get an A. I would not be surprised to get somewhere around 50% even though did I study? Yes. Did I go to class? Yes. Did I participate and understand? Yes. I still feel like some of the questions were obscure and the essays were too vague. Oh well. It's done. Then in Religion we watched a movie called "Ushpizin." It was STRANGE. I wasn't entirely sure what the point was for probably the whole movie. I'll have to watch it again. I liked their names though, Moshe and Mali.

Now today, that is a whole different, much more interesting story. :) I slept in for the first time in weeks! I woke up when Seth left at like 9, but I went back to sleep for about 2 more hours. Then I got ready, Seth came back, and we met up with Elea and Derek. We went to Carabba's (yum!) where Seth got ceiling water dripped on him. haha. Then we went and walked around the mall and even looked at pretty rings. ;) I'm not sure how either of us feel about this yet though. (Sorry to my parents if you are reading this! You may want to stop NOW!) That was fair warning, right? Well anyways, there was this gorgeous one that Seth actually picked out and I loved (perfect, right?) And it was on sale! Luck? Yeah, maybe. But we aren't sure.... how we feel about this... I don't want to share those feelings with the whole blog-world right now. I'll keep ya updated though.


THEN we went to see Inception. Besides the fact that Leonardo Dicaprio and Joseph Gordon-Levitt are gorgeous and Ellen Page is phenomenal, it was a BEAUTIFUL movie! It was so fascinating and made you question things and life and truth and reality. It coincided kind of perfectly with my Psychology of Dreams class - let me tell you I will be writing a journal or five about it for that class! It is impossible to sum up this movie with simple words or to even begin to form a real reaction to the movie, because it was almost more than a movie - more like an experience? It was really SO good. Some people may not have liked it, but I could care less. I thought it was brilliant. I thought it was just what our society needed - something to THINK about. Most movies just show facts or "truths." I love how open to interpretation it was and how it was a lot to do with WHO was watching the movie. From what I gather, Seth liked it too. :) I will have to see it again. I can feel it becoming one of my favorites because I'll never watch it exactly the same. Oh brilliant!! :) :) That really makes me happy.

On that note, I am going to bed since Seth won't watch another movie with me tonight. ;) I know he's tired but my mind won't stop because of that movie. haha. Going to read maybe.
Night blog readers! :)

If you want something to read and reflect on...

So I've been feeling a lot of stress for the past little while and I realized that I haven't blogged at all about anything really and that that was not allowing me to get out the thoughts that I inherently do not talk about normally. SO. Here is my blog on my week and the topics that have really gotten to me in a way.

First of all, I'll do kind of an update. Tomorrow I have two mid-terms. Yep, History and Psychology. I am quite scared of the History one for this reason: It is completely essay and short answer and it counts a lot! This does not look so great for me considering I am really not super-interested in how this man teaches his class. I find myself falling asleep in his 2.5 hour class and it can't all be because of lack of sleep. It's 10 am. I've had at least 7-8 hours of sleep, maybe even more, but that is doubtful. Here is the thing. He is monotone! He can't get excited about his stuff! I mean, I think this applies to a lot of things people do. We approach it as a necessity and we don't get excited anymore. I mentioned that I am not excited about school anymore - it almost comes in bursts.

Psychology. Psychology is really challenging me to read more into things more than it has in several of my other psyc classes. Here's how. Dr. Kunkel is making us confront theory. He doesn't really give you the out of saying "I like" or "I dislike." I love that about the class. As vague as it is (not exactly GREAT for multiple choice tests) it is definitely something I will learn from. Here is the thing. I will probably get a B, simply because vague and studying......... but, I will learn more from it than classes I have gotten A's in. So what is more important? My GPA, which will remain fine if not great, should not be the only goal in college should it? That leads me to some things that have been said in class. "Without conflict we have no meaning. We need our demons AND our angels." I also love his approach to psychotherapy. He said something like "We drown together. Want to go up? Because I'm going up." If that doesn't make sense, well I'm not surprised. But he is saying that to be a good listener and helper you have to be able to experience something with someone without influencing how they do it. You can help them to the top by example, not by telling them in words. It was kind of brilliant.


Now my religion class is proving to be just as interesting as my Psychology and it is the ONLY reason I might do well on my History midterm tomorrow. Doesn't make sense yet, huh. Well Religion and the part of History we are covering have common overlapping themes. I think in Religion that, hey, that is kind of like blah blah blah in History. Thank you Dr. Tietjen for helping me pass History! haha. But besides that, what do you think about this? Judaism has a facet that talks about how your vocation, your sex life, your clothing, your food, everything has to do with God. So if your vocation has to do with God, then by going to work you are practicing your religion, if you are truly invested. I am a fan of this concept. If we were on Facebook, I would click "like." It makes me feel as if what I love to do (volunteer) and what I wish to do in my career (help and/or guide) is going to mean something to someone other than myself and the people involved. I also dislike that I feel as if I don't have the time to volunteer anymore. This is not literally true, but my feeling this way is true. I do feel this way. I do feel like my priorities have shifted in a way in which I am not happy. This won't change overnight, but I can slowly change this part of my life so I can get back to feeling as if I can do the things I love again. I'll get there. It's a journey, right?

Another thing this brought up is that college is selfish. It's inevitable. College is only about us. It isn't about our parents. It isn't about our siblings. It isn't about the greater good. It's also something we have to get over and also to realize is a learning experience rather than completely "real life." I don't go to college for anyone but myself. It may FEEL like it is expected, but expectations are not rules and not even rules can MAKE a person do something. I'm going to leave that open-ended...because I'm not done yet.

Good bye!

Oh, Life, Oh Life, Oh Life

Hm. I have nothing completely interesting to blog about, mostly because the majority of my energy is being directed at my school stuff that is going on. Yesterday I took my first exam - Got a B, which is better than I expected! He graded it very leniently. Thankfully.

Here is one thing. Today in Dreams the professor made a few points I'm still contemplating. Someone asked him if he "agreed" with something. Well that was not the best wording. His answer? "You don't care if I agree with you, just like I don't care if you agree with me." At the same time as being sarcastic, it was VERY true. No one TRULY cares if someone agrees. Someone can truly care about someone's thoughts, but not if they "agree." So to that, I say touche!

Another thing we talked about was the ability to be reflective. Freud says this ability is much harder, more transcendent, than the ability to observe. People who never get past the version of life as far as experiences is psychotic, those who never get past observing are neurotic, and a healthy human being can and does reflect. It makes sense to me. I kind of love the concept.

"Those who say do not know, and those who know do not say." THAT came up in Religion today. We are studying the Daoists/Taoists. :) Love.

SATURDAY!

Have I mentioned at all that my weeks suck? Well yesterday I woke up with a sinus headache. It was fantastic. But I'm not blogging about that, it's boring.

Monday I have my first test of the semester. Lol. And then Friday I have TWO midterms. Isn't that fantastic? I'm going to need some pills! hahah. And they are back-to-back classes. Plus I have no idea what to study for my Psychology MT. He is so vague!!

Well anyways. Yesterday we completely cleaned and reorganized our kitchen. It was good because it needed to be done! So then we decide that we need to move around our bedroom furniture. It ended up being that pretty much everything got moved, but we definitely like the new layout! Luckily. Plus it gave us a chance to do some major cleaning behind the furniture! haha. Now all we need to do is get a rug for the bedroom and get the carpet cleaned and presto! We both like how things ended up. Then we went to Wal-Mart and we bought some cheap chairs and a table for our deck. It is such useless space right now and it needed to feel more lived in. I mean, we've been here a year and we've signed our lease for another one. We also bought the dogs a new dogbed that they seem to like. They alternated between sleeping with us and sleeping in it last night, so we are working on getting them to sleep in their own beds!! Exciting. :) haha.

Other than that........ My life is average? lol. I'm going to go fix some lunch in a minute and maybe do a bit more cleaning. Seth is supposed to bring our new vacuum home with him today, so I'll wait on that. Oh and our complex is installing fans in the apartments! Yes! Then we went have to use the air as much! Score.

Other than that not a whole lot going on. I'll probably start my studying for my Religion test on Monday.

Au Revoir.

Thursday

Okay, so today was better than the past two days for a few reasons. Reason number one: I have passed both of my History quizzes so far. Reason number two: In dream group, Lauren brought incense that smelled REALLY good so I went and bought some. Burning it right now. :) I think it was called Nag Champa? Not positive and I'm not checking. Reason number three: Seth brought me a huge Coke to keep me awake in my third class that I appreciated very very much :) Plus I got to see him at least once between 9 am and 10 pm. :) Reason number four: We watched a Gandhi movie in Religion. Which, I really like this movie, because it's inspiring. Reason number five: I got either a 10/10 or a 10/12 on my World Religion paper. I couldn't read the last number, but either way that's good! Reason number six: I found the type of incense that I wanted and now I'm burning it. Unfortunately I have the windows open since I live in an apartment complex. Boo. I wanted to smell it better. But maybe I'm calming down the neighbors? haha. OH, and: Reason number seven: Tomorrow is Friday!! 7.5 hours and then it's the weekend for me!!!!!

Now, Reason that I'm not 100% happy: I am so frustrated with this job hunt. I keep getting pushed under the rug.

Oh, School

Honestly, I'm not even sure what to say about the last two days. I went to my first day of class on Tuesday. 10 am my History class starts - I am bored by halfway through. Which is good, that means I wasn't bored for the FIRST hour. I find out that we have a quiz in that class basically every single day - the first one was today, Wednesday. After this class, I go to my Psychology of Dreams class at 12:30. The professor is kind of... I'm not sure the word. He's very passive, laissez-faire-ish? Like "the responsibility is on the student." And when asked the required length of journals he says "it's not how long, it's what." Kind of goofy I guess, but I kind of like him. Then I went to my Philosophy class - we started learning about Hinduism. Speaking of which, Hinduism is kind of fascinating. It seems to be more of a lifestyle than a religion - and I do not mean that in any sort of bad way. Maybe that IS how religion is supposed to be, rather than the western culture's approach.

Then I went with Seth and Elea out to dinner right after class at 5:30. When Seth and I came home, I wrote my paper for Philosophy (yes, a paper due on the second day of class..) And briefly studied for my History quiz. Then I vegged out. I had too. Yesterday was basically over 8 hours of school. Condensed. Ugh. Ugh. Oh well.

So today, in History Erica and I realize that maybe we didn't study the right book for the quiz? And we didn't. So we quickly studied it before the quiz. We at least passed! Hooray! Then in Psychology we broke into our "dream groups." I didn't mention this before, but 1. Renee and Andi are in my Psyc class and 2. we have dream groups. obviously. Our "dream groups" are basically 5-7 people from the class that meet every day to discuss our dreams and/or class material and/or both of those things in tandem. Not entirely sure what we are supposed to do yet! Oh well. So then, after that class, I went to Philosophy and turned my paper in, and then sat for 2.5 hours. I really like this professor, he's really cool, BUT, by 3:00 or later my interest in school has greatly deteriorated, as would be expected. I feel bad about that, like I should be better prepared to pay attention. But I'm not. Sorry Dr. Tietjen!

Now I'm at the apartment. Typing this in order to procrastinate studying for ANOTHER quiz in History tomorrow and writing my Dream Journal. Sounds kind of stupid. But my hand hurts.